When the Light Led Me Home - What I Found After Leaving The New Age

I didn’t leave the New Age because I wanted to. I left because God showed up and made it impossible not to. Out of nowhere, in February of 2024, in the stillness of my bedroom, stone-cold sober, I had a completely supernatural, life-altering encounter with Jesus — and it wrecked me in the best way.

Let me just repeat that one more time (maybe more for me than for you, because 1.5 years later even I am still in shock about where God has led me)... I didn’t leave the New Age. God pulled me out of it in one single supernatural moment with Jesus — sudden, stunning, undeniable — and that encounter changed everything.

For over 20 years, since I was 18 to be exact, I was that girl: healing with crystals, interpreting the past and predicting the future with oracle cards, channeling all kinds of entities and spirits, worshipping the moon, manifesting through prayers and rituals, worshipping and praising my spirit guides, Gods and Goddesses of all kinds and names. Trust me, I was the last person I, or anyone who knows me would expect to call Jesus “Lord.”

But when God came for me, He came hard and made it undeniably clear. In that moment, in that encounter with Jesus, I instantly gained access, or found, or was given (I'm still not sure how to phrase it), what I’d been searching for all those years — truth, peace, a knowing God like I never knew Him before, and a relationship with the living God that no ritual could ever replicate. The peace, the clarity, the revelation — it was truly like receiving everything I had searched for, wrapped in the love of a God I had misunderstood for so long.

From Worshipping “The Universe” to Knowing The Living God: My Journey Out of the New Age

For years, I was a "spiritual seeker". I practiced and studied many of the New Age modalities — healing with crystals, summoned and channeled all kinds of entities and spirits, talked to my spirit guides, worshipped astrology and relied on divination for insight and revelation — I did a little bit of all of it. I wasn’t trying to rebel against God; I was genuinely searching for Him. I wanted peace, healing, purpose, and connection. But what I found, over time, was that most of what I thought was “light” was actually just a really convincing imitation.

When I met Jesus in February 2024, everything abruptly changed in the was I was "seeking" — instantly, unmistakably, and supernaturally. It wasn’t just an emotional moment. It was a visceral, soul-deep, can’t-deny-it-even-if-I-wanted-to kind of encounter. Jesus introduced Himself to me in my room int he middle of the night while I was having a conversation with God. The peace that came over me wasn’t something I conjured or visualized. It was given — by Someone who knew me better than I knew myself. And it changed my entire perception of how I'd been searchign and seeking for God, for answers, for Truth, for healing.

What Do “Religion,” “New Age,” and “Christianity” Really Mean?

Before I go any further, I think it’s important to pause and talk about what these words actually mean — because the word religion often carries a lot of baggage.

By definition, religion is simply a system of beliefs and practices centered around a higher power or ultimate truth, often including moral teachings, rituals, and community expressions of faith. It doesn’t necessarily mean “organized church” or “dogma.” That term would be organized religion. Religion is about what — or Who — a person ultimately worships, obeys, and builds their life around.

And by that definition, both New Age spirituality and Christianity are religious frameworks. Both have beliefs, moral values, rituals, and guiding philosophies. Both seek meaning, purpose, and connection with the divine. The difference lies in who or what is at the center of that devotion.

New Age spirituality is a broad movement emphasizing personal transformation, self-divinity, and the belief that humans can access higher consciousness through meditation, energy work, astrology, channeling, or other metaphysical practices. It borrows language and beliefs from many traditions — Christianity, Hinduism, Buddhism, mysticism — blending them into a “choose your own truth” approach to the divine.

My experience was that, at the center of the New Age movement was that as a whole, it preaches self-empowerment: that you are divine, that God (or “Source”) is within you therefore you are God / Goddess, and that enlightenment comes through self-realization. In this sense, the New Age as far as I can comprehend intellectually, is by definition a religion — it provides a worldview, a sense of morality, and spiritual practices that use all kinds of different tools to connect with the divine (which is often referred to as "The Universe", or "God within", or "Higher Self", etc.). It often rejects the concept of sin, repentance, or absolute truth — instead teaching that you get to choose your own version of the truth and that all paths lead to the same light.

Christianity, on the other hand, is centered on relationship with a personal God — not through self-empowerment or finding the God source within, but through surrender and devotion to serving a single God. It teaches that God Himself came to earth in the form of Jesus Christ to restore humanity’s relationship with its Creator. Christianity doesn’t deny the divine image within us, but it reminds us that we are not the source of divinity — we are made by the Source.

Christianity is centered on faith in Jesus Christ as the Son of God — God manifested in human form — who lived, died, and rose again to reconcile humanity to God. It’s not about humans becoming gods, but about God bridging the gap between heaven and earth to bring us into right relationship with Him.

At its core, Christianity teaches humility and the empowerment comes through surrendering to God's will and the belief that salvation and spiritual power don’t come from within us alone, but through the Holy Spirit given to us when you accept that Jesus lived, as God in human form, and died for our sins to create a New Covenant for humanity. Its purpose is to bring about the forgiveness of sins, transform hearts, and create an intimate relationship with God by writing His law on believers' hearts and granting them the Holy Spirit. It supersedes the Old Covenant (made with Moses) which, due to humanity's sinfulness, had been repeatedly broken. I want to make a really imporatnt statement here that I did not understand prior to meeting Jesus and learning about Christianity as a religion: true Christianity isn’t blind religion or empty ritual. It’s relationship with the God who created us.

So while both are “religions,” their foundations are radically different. The New Age seeks truth by looking inward for personal godhood. Christianity finds truth by looking upward — toward a holy God who offers grace, redemption, and relationship through His Son.

I don’t share this to criticize anyone’s path. I deeply understand the hunger that drives people toward the New Age — the longing for peace, for healing, for connection, for answers, and for many it's a desire to be free from religious dogma. I chased all of that myself. But what I eventually discovered is that even the most enlightened version of myself can’t save itself. And that’s where Jesus met me — I was praying that night about being free from the striving and searching. I was questoning God, or really it was more of a "calling God out" because I was feeling lost, again, despite all of my self-work. And in came Jesus. He gave me peace, and He showed me the true meaning of surrender.

The Allure of “Everything is God”

The New Age world talks a lot about “oneness,” “higher self,” and “God energy within.” And honestly, some of it sounds beautiful. There are good intentions there — healing, mindfulness, compassion, love. But what I eventually realized is that without discernment, those ideas can twist into something dangerous: self-worship.

When we start saying we are God, instead of we are created by God, the focus shifts from humility to personal power. It’s subtle, but it’s the difference between surrender and control. Between light that frees you and light that blinds you.

Yes, I believe God’s Spirit lives within me now. But I am not Him. I am His. There’s a big difference. And man, let me tell you how relieving it's been to be surrendered to the one who created me. To let Him take my worries, stresses, challenges, and allow Him to guide me versus trying to find that guidance from within me, as if I were God.

The Counterfeit Comfort

The New Age gives you all kinds of tools, rituals, modalities, and options, but for me that many paths led me into a lot of confusion. And it did not give me the kind of peace that lasts. Looking back I think a good analogy is that having so many paths to God felt like drinking salt water when I'm thirsty. It just led to a growing thirst that wasn't satisfied, and it created a lot of imbalance in my life.

I can see now that many of the “masters” and “guides” I thought were helping me were actually feeding confusion and spiritual dependency. They mimicked truth, but they weren’t Truth. The Bible calls these entities “familiar spirits” — not holy ones.

I have talked to God my entire life, even before I knew Jesus the way I do now. But there were so many times in my life I felt like something was missing, like I was shouting into a void and occasionally getting echoes that sounded nice but led me nowhere. When I met Jesus, that confusion disappeared. I stopped guessing who I was talking to and I have not had a day go by where God doesn't feel right here, close, accessible, present.

The Real Relationship

Since meeting Jesus, I’ve never once felt deceived, lost, or unsure of who to pray to. My prayers don’t feel like wish lists or energy work anymore — they’re conversations with the living God. The same God who created the stars, who forgives sins, who heals, who loves us enough to come here Himself. This is the supernatural connection I was searchign for my entire life! This is why I now call myself a Christian. Because I was brought out of a religion where I was praying to God but kept looping and feeling deceived and let down, no matter how hard I tried. And there is no other way I can explain it, but by the grace of God I was given access to the one true God I had been searchign for my whole life and it was shown to me that this connection is through Jesus.

I don’t fit neatly into every “Christian” box. I’m not religious for religion’s sake. I don’t agree with every pastor or theologian out there. But I do believe now, in relationship with God through Jesus and not relationship through "X, Y, Z" ritual. I believe in living with good morals, humility, and love. And most of all, I believe that the supernatural power of God is not only real — it’s holy, protective, and meant to draw us closer to Him, which naturally draws us away from our own pride and Self-centeredness.

From Self-Empowerment to Surrender

Sometimes I miss the rituals and the "freedom" of spiritual practices that I practiced in the New Age path. But the truth is that God changed me so much that He showed me the truth about many of those practices: that the “freedom” came with invisible chains. I constantly needed new tools, new teachers, new modalities, new signs.

Since I gave my life to Jesus, I don’t chase those things anymore. I rest. I trust. I know exactly Who I belong to. It's peaceful. And I know I keep saying this, but it was given to be supernaturally and I believe that was because in that moment when I met Jesus and felt that crazy sense of peace wash over me, I felt safe, and held, and that gave me the willingness to stop trying to control everything in that moment.

The Holy Spirit doesn’t manipulate, confuse, or entertain. He transforms.

And while I’ll always stay open-minded and compassionate toward people who believe differently — I know where home is now. After all those years of searching, I finally found what feels like the real thing in my relationship with God today.

So no, I don’t believe in worshipping many gods anymore. I do follow God's rules as they are laid out in the Bible. I believe in one God — the OG God. The God of the Most High. The 3-in-1: The Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit. And nothing — absolutely nothing — compares to walking in relationship with Him.

Author’s Note

If you’re reading this and you’re in that “seeking” season — I see you. I was you. The hunger for truth, peace, and spiritual connection is real and beautiful. But please know: there’s a reason Jesus called Himself The Way, The Truth, and The Life. It’s not arrogance — it’s love.

I don’t share this to condemn anyone’s path. I share it because I’ve walked almost every spiritual road you can name, and none of them led to the peace I found when I met Him. You don’t have to have it all figured out. Just start the conversation. Talk to Him. Ask for truth — and He will show you. And when He does… you’ll know.